9:04 p.m. - 19th September 05
What to do?
Strange in my head.
Sort of love my job, but it's so damn busy again! A year since boy incident...a whole year and I've just booked my fourth holiday...roll on Lanzarote next month.
Tired from my own ambivalance.....love job, hate this town.....I'm living to work, can't get the social bit sorted.....bottle it all the time. Got so hurt last year, so damn hurt by so many people. A gal has been poison itself, as has N.....didn't have too much confidence anyway BUT now it's become a complete phobia...I have no social life for someone who is single. I see mommy S I see M and IS but it's all indoor socialising, so never meet anyone apart from work. That's an issue 'cause of my job...can't mix the business and pleasure stuff.....and believe me there is plenty of business.
It's been tough as IS and E have had words, IS was right, E is playing with fire when it comes to boy...it's a wrong un. He's now shagged C which has caused a problem as her fiance has now chucked her and so will he in the end.
Last week was traumatic at work
